Moment of gratitude

I was thinking today about how grateful I am to have the family I have. I never thought I’d be as happy as I am. I thought marriage turned into a slow burn of cold ice and resignation with blips of joy stolen. I thought compromise meant you surrendered a piece of yourself for peace’s sake. I’m grateful that I was wrong. Sometimes I get wistful that my happiness will change. My 2 yo will be 3 then before I know it, he’ll be off at college. I won’t get the morning cuddles anymore. That will be sad. But, I’m not afraid of my happiness melting away. I just try to take moments to appreciate what I have now so that I can remember the feeling later. I’d rather have the loss than to have a lifetime of the icy cold of loneliness I once felt

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